my motivation is mad low right now to be honest, haste makes waste, so i wont be slacking and cutting corners to wrap up the album, but i just want it to be over yo…i met a gypsy and she hipped me to some life game: i was told that i want something and i can have it, but i wont get it until i…how did she put it…basically i have to be thorough if i want whatever it is i want. you know what? shes right. the only problem now is…im being thorough, but what the hell do i want? before we get into that, lets go back to motivation.
my main motvation was excitement over other peoples music and seeing it be received by the listeners. now let me see….what was it, below the heavens? that was my modern motivation for brooklynati…it was proof that music can do it on its on. below the heavens, aquemini, low end theory, the score (with pras, wiseass) and….hmm that may be it. low end theory and the score because both albums were sophomore efforts where they came back on some hyper-themselves shit. like, tribe came back with a perfected version of their talents on the first lp, same with the fugees. aquemini was outkasts’ 3rd album but it sounded like a perfected version of atliens to me.
recently “tronic” has been an inspiration because once again, someone that came back a perfected version of themselves.
that raises this question though: all for what?
you cant depend on rap money, you cant depend on rap fans (to be fair, as a rap fan, i cant depend on artists either), and as a child all i wanted was someone to say “that album you made was a classic!!” and “your album just went platinum!!”. ive heard one of those two statements enough times to finally at least accept the compliment and not say “nah man *nervous laugh*” and im sure ill never hear the other one, unless im standing next to T.I.
maybe the only realistic goal for brooklynati should be that it makes us at least popular enough to not have to answer the “why the name” question anymore….but my goal for it is to change some kids life, to make them want to start rapping…heres the catch, they have to be meant to rap! imagine the album being the catalyst to the next jay z or something. i like that goal because it shits on this godawful instant gratification thing thats become so popular in the past few years. its not a goal that depends on first week numbers, it doesnt depend on buzz, it doesnt depend on how many collabos youve done or how many #1’s youve had or how many mixtapes you made or how fast you can make a beat or which rapper you punched on youtube. it all lies in the hands of time. even if its not rapping, maybe itll be some singer that heard it when they were 11 and it made them start singing.
the person this album is for isnt even reading this. they may not even know how to read yet. they may be 2 right now, and when they’re 14 they’ll find your old iphone and laugh at how throwback it is, but then discover brooklynati on there…and listen…and be blown away…maybe.
all of this is for a reason though.